I'll just come out with it.

I need your help. If you're a fan of mine on Newgrounds, thank you for the years. I've dedicated much time to uploading my music on here.

If you're just now hearing of me. I'm Stereocrisis. I play guitar, sing. I also play bass, drums, and I like to use Fruity Loops Studios software to make experimental sound pieces, beats, video game music, cinematic sounding thing, and even rock songs.

I am primarily influenced by my parents, who were both musicians. I took much of my sensibilities about how music should sound from them. I routinely was exposed to David Bowie, Iggy Pop, The Ramones, the Sex Pistols, and the list goes on. I was hearing everything from Mike Oldfields Tubular Bells as much as I was hearing The Damned jam out on Neat, Neat, Neat. I really enjoyed later rock music like Pearl Jam, Nirvana, Green Day, Foo Fighters, Smashing Pumpkins, Live, Blur, Stone Temple Pilots. But I was always with my ears open. My grandfather played Frank Sinatra. My mother would play oldies from the 60's. The Beatles. The Zombies. Surf rock. Early punk rock.

I like a bit of everything. My style was never really country music or rap or hip-hop. But I like that stuff too. Eminem is funny. I even like embarrassing stuff. I don't care. Miley Cyrus. I got my hands up, they're playing my song... It's a party in the U.S.A. Yep. That's catchy as shit. Act tough all you want. Hahahaha

Even in the worst songs on my playlist, you could tell I was having fun with the creative process, and loving every minute of my crappy pieces of art. But I really do play so much more often than I record. I should have 12 Gold Records by now. No bullshit. And I still remember how to play most of it. That's the thing. I want to record, and be heard. I have a lot of stuff to say. I need that outlet. When you share what you make, it's like casting a fishing line out to catch god knows what kind of support and fans and recognition good or bad.

So, to be clear. I have no ego about it. About any of this. I'm not trying to be someone, like musicians often give the impression. I am a musician when no one is looking, just like when I've played in front of audiences. I don't do it for anybody besides myself. If I'm on stage, that's different. Nobody wants a stiff onstage. I try to make it a show, however minimally contrived, it is a show. Not my depressing bedroom where I wrote this, dreaming of doing this. Planning not to stay in that depressing situation.

During my life experience, my parents split up. My father chose to end his life early. He jumped from a bridge that I still have to drive on some times, in my hometown city. Itmade the front page of the local newspaper. It was horrific seeing that. How all of these personal problems where now out there for everyone, as it had been for me, growing up with his threats to kill himself. He would drink. A lot. I've seen him swallow a handful of pills. I've seen him with a razor blade to his throat. I've watched as he almost died. He fell down some stairs drunk one time and it was an accident that became a lifelong injury. I woke up one time. The whole bed was shaking. Some times when you're a kid you sleep in the same bed as your parents. He was having a grand mal seizure right next to me. I watched him suffer seizures many times. He lost his sense of taste and smell permenantly from that accident.

I guess I'm telling you this because it has no doubt influenced my music, and also in many ways, hindered my progress with pursuing it. His suicide really made going on 13 years now, rather tasteless in ways people just can not identify with me on. The finality of it. It bred in me a fatalistic principle that isn't fake. I'm not trendy. I didn't get my ideas to hate life from music. If I'm hating life, it is my life, and that has nothing to do with any musicians anywhere who died of an overdose or suicide. It has everything to do with my own story. So much abuse, and it's over, and for what? I really, a lot of times, have let this life get me down to the points of feeling depressed, even severely depressed.

And I think what saved me was being able to play my guitar. It has been an enjoyable act for nearly 2 decades, and I want to make a record.

You can go and listen if you'd like, to my creations. I would take it as a compliment if you read this, and then went to go listen to my audio portal.

Our parents would have loved to grow up in a time with this kind of exposure to fans, should they have been musically, or otherwise artistically inclined.

I want to make one of the best music records that I am capable of making. While I am young enough to promote it on a palatable and relatable level, before I lose my interest 'going for it' with the idea of being in the entertainment business.

I want something I did in a professional sound recording studio.

As an afterthought, (A genuine thought nevertheless.) this music means something to me, and that's okay however people want to interpret the songs, or the lyrics.

This is my thought. Something that my fans can take pleasure in being part of is something they know they helped me create.

I would like to ask for donations.

Paypal.me/audiomenace